what was it i was thinking, or was i even thinking at all? when i think of what i thought back then, then i'm ashamed; and i'm appalled that i gave up all i was so easily. living your life is not for me. i won't be sedated, i won't be sedated! give me a little taste and i know i won't want more. i won't be sedated, stability is overrated. give me the disorder i adore. i can't be a part, be a part, i can't be a part. i can't be a part, be a part of your modern world. i've gotta be apart, be apart, i've gotta be apart. i've gotta be apart. i can't grasp the values that you hold. what was it you were thinking, or were you even thinking at all? when i think of what you thought of me, i take offense; and i'm appalled that you could discount all i love so easily. living our life is not for me.