Every morning I put on some makeup
I colour my face in
Like a colouring pad
Trying to tell myself that I’m a weapon
And I look amazing
But I don’t mean that
Describe yourself in 3 words, I’ll list things that I despise
There’s only one person involved and I’m here picking sides
I’ll Batter every inch of what’s been keeping me alive
But I
I live by the rules of the bitch inside/devil in my mind
I couldn’t impress her even if I tried
You can Tell me I’m pretty
And Tell me I’m great
But How can I believe something my brain tells me is fake
Tell me that I’m sexy
But my body feels dead
When it’s me
Me against my head
And I wanna go out for a dinner
And eat loads of pizza
Without feeling bad
And I wanna be voicing opinions
In deep conversations
Wihthout feeling bland
Where’s the self confident girl
With all of her freckles and curls
Now Dreaming of healthy and thin
sitting here sucking in
Thinking that’s gonna change the world
Change the world